‘What is a lie that you have come into agreement with, allowing it to cling to you as a truth?’
My squad mentor, Kylee, asked us this question at debrief last week and I shuddered at the thought of answering it. Everyone was there and I was so afraid of someone judging the lies that I clung too.
One by one I heard my squad mates tearfully share what the Lord was putting on their hearts, where He was saying “You are believing this as truth, but it did not come from me. This is a lie, and you need to break all ties with it”.
As they stepped out in obedience, my lies got louder. As they broke agreements and stepped into freedom, new lies began saying I wasn’t worth the time of my brothers and sisters. I should just stay silent.
Then I heard another voice. It was softer and sweeter, but somehow clearer. “You have stayed silent for months. Until you speak this out, you will not be able to walk in freedom. Step into My grace and freedom in boldness.”
I stepped forward, tears beginning to well as a lumped formed in my throat. I managed to say “I have believed the lie that I’m not worthy”. And it was true. My whole life I have believed that, but it branched into so much more. At this point tears were falling quickly and I thought “freedom is now or never”.
“I have believed the lie that I am unworthy of healing, and therefore I am unworthy of walking in Kingdom culture. I have believed I am unworthy to minister and unworthy to pray over people. It has lead me to wonder why I’m even here and it has paralyzed me.”
I had never voiced this in my life. I didn’t even know the extent to which unworthiness clung to my relationships. I wholeheartedly repented of coming into agreement with these lies and proclaimed these truths: As the daughter of the King, I am worthy of healing; as someone who walks in forgiveness, I am worthy of sharing the Gospel.
My squad stepped into the grace that Christ offers as they circled around me in support and accountability. They prayed over me and encouraged me as chains fell off at the name of Jesus Christ.
It seems crazy that I am a missionary, and yet I thought I was unworthy of sharing the story of grace. And it might seem even crazier that I am telling you such an intimate story. Here is the thing though. Satan fed me those lies hoping to hold me in fear forever, and after my healing, he tries to keep my mouth shut so that the power of my testimony reaches no one. But I don’t answer to him, and my words are not controlled by his lies.
I challenge you to sit with the Lord and ask what lies you have come into agreement with. What have you allowed to hold you back from stepping into the power we are given? And then repent and break all agreement in the name of Jesus. Replace them with truth and invite your community to step into accountability and support.
Freedom is sweet. And God is always inviting us into more.
